unfaithful

story of my life,
searching for the right,
but it keeps avoiding me.
sorrow in my soul,
cause it seems that wrong.
really loves my company,
he's more than a man and this is more than love.
the reason that the sky is blue,
the clouds are rolling in,
because i'm gone again,
and to him i just can't be true.
and i know that he knows i'm unfaithful.
and it kills him inside to know that i am happy with some other guy,
i can see him dying,
i don't wanna do this anymore.
i don't wanna be the reason why.
everytime i walk out the door,
i see him die a little more inside.
i don't wanna hurt him anymore.
i don't wanna take away his life.
i don't wanna be...a murderer.
i feel it in the air,
as i'm doing my hair,
preparing for another day.
a kiss up on my cheek,
he's here reluctantly,
as if i'm gonna be out late.
i say i won't be long,
just hanging with the girls,
a lie i didn't have to tell.
because we both know,
where i'm about to go and we know it very well.
our love, his trust,
i might as well take a gun and put it to his head,
get it over with.
i don't wanna do this anymore.


p.s darling : i'm sorry!